But how exactly? I don't enjoy sex, I don't enjoy eating, I don't enjoy drinking, talking, walking, swimming, cars, toys, girls, boys, reading, studying, love, anger, fight, sports, shooting, killing, petting, nothing. People think that these became unenjoyable after I got computer, no! I've been like this since I was a little kid like 6-7 years old. I was thinking about impossible things for a child to think at that age ("abstract operations period"). I am a cursed shit. And as I said before medications aren't made for me, they are all made for normal people who enjoy a lot of things but 1 or maybe 2 things happened to them and they feel devastated. Yes, after ingesting those drugs you can forget about the 1 or 2 thing and you can GO BACK and enjoy the rest of the shit you have already been enjoying. If you don't have anything, drugs won't help you. I wish I could kill myself, but I am a gay loser.