>>338905120Ending one. I went in completely blind about the actual content and choices in the game, only knowing some of the characters (mainly Rosa, liked her both before and after playing the game) and the general overview of some endings.
I interrupted Fang on the rooftop the second opportunity because it seemed like a good time to step in.
I asked Naser because I thought asking Fang would just result in them getting into a fight.
I rearranged the cables I didn't realize not doing so was an act of trusting Reed.
I studied instead of playing guitar because I thought it was encouraging Fang to be more responsible and because of Spears saying not doing so would trap you.
I left early because I thought I had already said enough to Trish.
Also I didn't realize that the choices would change Anon. I expected him to go down a set path only depending on how you influenced other characters since he's "Anon", meant to be a self-insert. I didn't think he'd be treated like another, real character in the game. I also never once reloaded.
It really was like watching a train wreck unfold in slow motion.
Her being in that androgynous dress made me know I fucked up, but I didn't realize what I had truly done. Each step made it worse and worse as I realized that things weren't going to get better at that point. I only started wondering if I got the shooting ending after the string breaking. Obviously I immediately brushed it off as me being paranoid. I remember exactly how each moment of having my denial stripped away felt. I only actually accepted it on the stairs before the hallway full of bodies. Meeting Fang on the roof was what really did me in. Never cried or even got wet eyes, but that made me legitimately horrified and worried about what kind of state I as a person in real life was in. It made me feel empty and hollow as a person, not in the ">tfw no ptero gee eff" way, but in the "am I a psychopath who ruins everything I touch?" way.